So Here’s Why I Deleted my Everyday Make-up Tutorial…

I wanted to quickly check in here, and say hello.
* hey *
Believe it or not, I actually have a lot of blog posts in the works that I’m excited to share,
but they are SUPER content heavy, so it’s taking me some time to
take the right photos,
edit the right photos,
write the right content.
not be a perfectionist.
take the hobbits to Isengard.
you get it.

Anyways, I wanted to quickly come on here and explain why I
deleted my everyday make-up tutorial like an asshole.
Why I through an invisibility cloak over it forever.

Some of you might have not noticed that I did that.
Either because you’ve already watched it,
or because you could give a fuck lol.
I’m good either way.

Anyways, I decided to delete my everyday make-up tutorial because I truthfully hated watching it.
This particular blog post was something that I really wanted to get right.
I don’t have a ton of followers, but I had SO many people ask me to do this video.

I had mentioned on many occasions that videos weren’t my favourite (as I had taken a huge break from them)
but that I would do my best to get one done.

Anyways, I filmed the video the day I got back from vacation and I told myself I would do it in ONE take and would just
do my make-up like I normally would,
and try my best to explain myself step by step,
without looking or sounding like a moron.

Now that I watch it back, I really don’t enjoy watching myself.
The funny part is, I’m actually completely satisfied with how my make-up turned out.
It’s pretty accurate, and thats relatively what I look like every day.
But I felt like I couldn’t have been further from myself.

Videos are HARD, MAN.
I mean, the internet is hard in general.
But trying to be yourself in front of a camera is like trying to watch just ONE episode of The Office.

I had just gotten back from vacation,
where I had to say goodbye to my boyfriend who I won’t be seeing for months,
and it didn’t help that I wasn’t excited about the idea from the beginning.

Anyways, all that mindless rambling aside. I bring you to the actual point of this blog post.
I am going to try again, to make a decent one. 
This time around I think I’ll try it while I’m with my family, when I’m in a better mood, and maybe do it in one take.

I’m taking a moment to laugh at myself, because I just wrote the most dramatic paragraph about how I’m going to
‘try to make another make-up tutorial’ as if it’s the hardest thing in the world.
Like Pointless Drama Society, can I have my crown?

*sarah bring this blog to a point*

I am VERY hard on myself, and that video just stressed me the EFF out.
If you feel like you’re doing something that totally isn’t you– don’t do it.
I feel this constant push and pull from the internet to write and do things that people want to see, even if those interests don’t even SLIGHTLY align with mine.
And 9 times out of 10, it never works out for me.

that is my monthly (ish) rant about my complicated relationship with the internet,
and my cliche reminder to be yourself.
I shall do my best to come out with another video.

In the mean time, I will be here
getting absolutely pumped for fall,
stressing over what I’m going to post next,
and reminding myself it’s better to post something MEH, than to post nothing at all.

I hope you guys are having an awesome week.
Here’s a photo that I look at and DON’T cringe.
This is real. This is me. This is exactly where I’m supposed to be. lol.

‘You rock, don’t EVER change.’
– Ethan Craft.


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